introvert

that's something I TRULLY AM!!

Contrary to what most people think, an introvert is not simply a person who is shy. In fact, being shy has little to do with being an introvert!
Shyness has an element of apprehension, nervousness and anxiety, and while an introvert may also be shy, introversion itself is not shyness. Basically, an introvert is a person who is energized by being alone and whose energy is drained by being around other people. They enjoy thinking, exploring their thoughts and feelings. They often avoid social situations because being around people drains their energy. This is true even if they have good social skills. After being with people for any length of time, such as at a party, they need time alone to "recharge."
When introverts want to be alone, it is not, by itself, a sign of depression. It means that they either need to regain their energy from being around people or that they simply want the time to be with their own thoughts.

what would you do if you knew you would't fail??

I would do a botanical illustration course and quit my job to draw and fulfill myself every single day. "pen" on paper instead of spending 8h hours a day with CAD. I would leave Portugal with my love to our dreamland where we would rent or even buy (knowing I would't fail) our lovely little house near the lake...where one day soon we would meet our baby...
somehow I would also manage to have a small bookstore of my own. A sacred space where I would have a special corner for children to enjoy and where I would teach them to love words, books and their smell as much as I do...

fragilidades II

confirma-se. partiu. como um copo de cristal estilhaçou-se em mil pedaços.
hoje não me apetece andar a colar peças. vou arrumá-las ali ao lado. se um dia me apetecer tento colar sabendo de antemão que nunca nada voltará a ser como antes...
agora pergunto-me...e se eu nunca colar os pedacinhos?...hummm...

evidências [update]

e...já lá vão 5.

inside out

a journey that it´s still in the beginning, but already had a big test to pass. Even though I have a few "cuts and bruises" I guess I´m ok, at least I survived. And I´m not giving up on this journey. It would be giving up on me.

evidências

até agora, das 8 pessoas com quem tive que falar desde que saí de casa, 4 já me perguntaram se eu estou bem. claramente tenho que deixar de ser tão "transparente".